Have you ever cheated on someone before?
I suppose this one would have to come up at some point. With the nature of the things I write and the questions about monogamy etc I imagine it was inevitable. So here comes the not so surprising truth.
Yes. Yes I have. To be honest my first ever experience was under the surprisingly exhilarating cloud of cheating. I wasn’t the cheater in that case but I was well acquainted with the person being cheated on. I will not say any more that that because this is one truth that could seriously damage a long standing relationship. Suffice to say it was a mistake for me to participate in the event, but we find surprising ways to justify our misdeeds.
So yes I have cheated. I suppose the strangest element of the situation was my lack of feeling any remorse whatsoever. Both at the time and later on. I know that it was wrong yet I felt no panes of guilt. I felt no shame or disgust. I felt next to nothing. I suppose that has been the most disturbing thing.
I’m not sure how that paints me. Now to you I may appear to be some sort of bizarre sociopath unconcerned with the feelings of others. In most cases I am able to sympathize and empathize with others but when it comes to cheating it becomes a big ol’ “Meh” reaction
I know this isn’t the reaction I should have. I should be upset at myself. Devastated at my weakness of character etc. but I just don’t have those feelings. I guess I’m just not a very good person then. *shrug*
It would be easier to lie. To say I’ve never cheated. That even though I’ve been tempted I’ve never followed through. But this isn’t the truth and that’s what the answers to these questions should be.
So sorry if I’ve disappointed you, my readers. I’m flawed. I’m imperfect. And sometimes I can be a real asshole. So feel free to throw stones at me, as I’m sure none of you have ever cheated nor have been tempted to cheat. Yes that was sarcasm. Live with it.
Next weeks question…..pick one….